Today was a good day.

Somedays the sun just seems to shine brighter than others even if the sun doesn't really come out. Does that even make sense? I woke up feeling good today. I even worked out for a bit which I think helped me jumpstart my day. I think of Gabriel each and everyday, but somedays I can smile when I think of him. I think of the lovely place he is at. I think of how calm and serene he must be. I think about how Jordan must be showing him around, and teaching him the ropes of heaven, and how things work up there. I miss Gabriel each day, and each day I miss carrying him, and I miss talking to my belly.

I know Christmas is going to be difficult, and it's difficult for me to just think about being in big crowds. I dont know why, but it just makes me sad to be in big crowds. I can't even begin to explain it. I'm just glad today was more of a smiles day rather than a gloomy sad day. I'm even starting to be satisfied with the fact that some people are better than others at being there for you, and those are the people I need to surround myself with. That's all for today. I'm going to enjoy the rest of what's left of today because I know tomorrow may not feel as good as today and that's okay. Take care!