Still here

So I said I was going to go back to blogging back in June, and I failed to do so. :( Life is so much busier in the summer months. Been bike riding a lot with Andy, taking her to different camps and activities. It's been quite the summer so far, and it's not over yet.

My brother's wedding was awesome, and the entire week leading up to it was definitely one of the most fun in my entire life. Spending all the time we did with my entire family was just what my heart needed. It was exhausting, but worth every second.

This summer is totally becoming what I had wanted it to. It's all about my Andy, and making sure she's enjoying herself to the fullest. I wanted to spend as much quality time with her as I can.

We are unsure of when we will try for another baby still. We are both very afraid of going through all the pain all over again. Two times has been more than enough for me, and I dont know what a 3rd loss would do to me. I lost the itch for another baby for a while, but now I feel it coming back which is kind of exciting, but at the same time very nerve wrecking. I guess I can only leave it up to God to let me know when the time is right.

Gabriel has been on my mind a lot of course, and I can't believe it's been so long since he went away. He would have been almost 4 months old. Wow! What would my baby have been like? I can only imagine I guess.