March 8th

Wow, it is March 8th, 2010. Exactly one month from today my c-section would have been scheduled, and I would have finally held little Gabriel in my arms. I can't believe that I'd be exactly one month from delivering him. How I wish that was my reality, but I must continue to learn to live with what reality really is, and it's learning to live without Gabriel.

I've recently started following the story of Layla Grace. Layla is a beautiful two year old little girl that is suffering from cancer. She is currently at home with her parents, and is not doing well at all. Anytime I hear of a child with cancer, my heart breaks for more than the obvious reason. It just sucks to know that yet another family has to live through such a nightmare the way mine did 10 years ago. Sometimes I ask God why children can't be protected from that horrible disease. Layla Grace will probably not make it through, but she definitely has already earned her angel wings. I just feel for this family so much. I look back at how Jordan's (my cousin) siblings didnt really get to know him, except for Michael, and how Andy will never know Gabriel, and now how Layla's older siblings will only have 2 short years of memories. I'm sure those 2 years are worth a lifetime though.

Please pray for little Layla's family, and especially so that she is not pain during these times. If you'd like to follow Layla's story you can go to www.laylagrace.org

I'm in no way related to or know Layla or her family, but just following their blog has inspired me in so many ways, and has really driven me to pray really hard for this little girl.