Events

Last Saturday we went to my cousin's 1st Communion, today we went to my nephew's 1st Communion, and in the following weeks we have a few other big events. I'm so happy for each and every person, but I can't help and wonder what it would be like for Gabriel to one day be celebrating these events in his life.

I wonder what he would look like in his tux in a church full of little boys and girls getting ready to receive Jesus for the first time, I wonder what he would like a graduation gown receiving his college diploma, what it would feel like seeing my son marry his dream girl. None of this can ever be answered.

I miss you more and more each day. I want to breathe again, I want to smile all the way again, but i know I can't, and I know I never will. A piece of me is gone forever, and I would do anything to get it back, but all I can do now is figure out how to make this my new normal.