I think I'm back

So MUCH going on in this crazy life lately, but I need to come back to writing on this blog regularly. I miss my little oasis where I can scream at the world without anyone really hearing how loud I'm being.

My brother is getting married in early July, and I'm the matron of honor so I've been planning bridal showers, bach. parties, and all the fun stuff that comes with weddings. A lot has been going on, and a lot still needs to be resolved.

The weather is finally getting nice out so that's kept Andy and I pretty busy during the days. As my brothers wedding nears I think of my little Gabriel more and more. I should be stressing out about how I'm going to find time to breastfeed him while standing up in the wedding. We have a ton of out of town family coming to town, and they all should be meeting my baby, but instead they either will say nothing or will be giving me their condolences. So that's been weighing heavy on my mind.

I also have a dress to fit into and that's not working out so well. I've been working out like crazy these last few weeks trying to get my butt in gear. I let myself go after my 2nd loss, and I'm paying a very hefty price for it. I've got to get myself together big time. There is only 5 weeks left!! I hope I can pull something off.