Kind of a rough day

Just had Gabe on mind a lot today. I can't believe I should be 12 weeks away from meeting my son, but instead I'm here missing my baby. I sat out looking at the rain fall down for a few today, and I felt him in the drops, I felt him in the gloomy sky, and I just wondered what he would have been like. Would he have looked like Andrea, would he have looked a bit more like me as a newborn, or would he look just like Beto? I wondered if he would have my passion for sports, Andy's strong will, or would he be hard headed, yet so giving like his father. I guess these are all answers I'll never know. It gets harder as my due date approaches. I just miss the joys of pregnancy, and the hopes and dreams that come with it. I hope tomorrow brings some good news. I love you Gabriel.