Snow

I've realized that I like to watch the snow fall. I dont necessarily like snow storms, but I like to watch the snow come down. I feel a sense of calm when I do. I feel a part of Gabriel is in each of those snowflakes. I don't know why the snow reminds me of him, but it just does. Granted I still hate Chicago winters, but at least now I know that some snow coming down will always remind of Gabe. I guess I look at it this way because no snowflake is ever the same, but yet they come together and form this big fluffy big pile. I feel that a baby is made the same way. All these particles come together and form a human being. I just know he's everywhere I go, and the snow is my silent reminder. I'm coming to terms that the pain will never go away, and that a part of my soul will forever be with Gabriel. I miss my little peanut a lot.