When?

When will the sadness subside? When will I stop counting down the days? When will I ever be 100% happy again? Is that even possible?

I miss him and I want him back. I just want to scream so loud at times. I feel like I can't breathe sometimes, and this world is just turning, and I'm at a standstill. I look at my Andy, and she keeps me going everyday, but I wish so bad I could have given her that baby brother. When she hugs and loves on other babies, it just tears at my heart.

Why? Why couldn't he have just stayed? I would do anything to just hold him in my arms one time, and give him a hug and a kiss just once.