I miss you

I miss you like crazy right now Gabe. I didnt think summer would be such a difficult time. As busy as I have been these last few weeks, I miss you more and more through all the chaos. I want you to be part of all these events, of all these good times. I want my chaos to be figuring out how to handle two kids under 2. It breaks my heart to watch your sister get so excited around babies, and I can only imagine how she would be around you. I love you so much, and I will never forget you.

Busy

I guess summer weather automatically means you are so booked from the minute you wake up until the minute you go to bed.

I want to keep up with blog like I was at the beginning so bad, but seriously I'm hardly ever by the computer anymore. Spending most of my days outside with Andrea and doing stuff for my brother's wedding. It's less than a month away, and I need to get my stuff together to fit into the dress. Lol. I really do.

Things have been great so far this summer, and I can't wait for Andy to start her classes at the park. Her speech therapy has really helped her a lot, and she's making so many sounds, and trying so hard to say a few new words. I can't believe my little baby is going to be 2 next month. Time just flies to quickly.

As far as my Gabe goes, I miss him so freaking much. Somedays are good and other days I'm just miserable. Somethings bother me on some days, and other days I deal with them as best as I can. Summer is really hard I guess cause I see so many newborn babies, and so many expectant mothers. I'm really happy for those moms, but a piece of me feels immense jealousy. I want my baby so bad I could scream. I miss him so much.

I would do anything in this life just to have him back for a moment. So many things going on this summer, and I really wish he was here with us to be a part of those events. I keep thinking of my brother's wedding, and I just think it'll be so difficult for me to make it through that. Family events seem to hurt more than anything.