I never forgot you

7pm CST came and went, and I remembered you just like I remember you everyday. I had "Beautiful Boy" by John Lennon playing cause that's what you will always be to me. My beautiful little boy that I never got to hold in my arms, but forever will hold in my heart.

It'll soon be a whole year since we lost you. I can only dream and imagine what you would have been. How beautiful life would be with you here with us. I miss you so much Gabriel. I dont cry for days at a time like I did at the beginning, but you are never far from my thoughts. We've started to move on with our lives, but we will never get over your loss. You will always be my first son, and you will always be my 2nd child. No matter how many more come after you, you will always be my 2nd child. Thanks for being a part of me even if it was only for a short while.

"Beautiful Boy"
Close your eyes,
Have no fear,
The monsters gone,
He's on the run and your daddy's here,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,

Before you go to sleep,
Say a little prayer,
Every day in every way,
It's getting better and better,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,

Out on the ocean sailing away,
I can hardly wait,
To see you to come of age,
But I guess we'll both,
Just have to be patient,
Yes it's a long way to go,
But in the meantime,

Before you cross the street,
Take my hand,
Life is just what happens to you,
While your busy making other plans,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,
Darling,
Darling,
Darling Sean.