much of nothing

Not a whole lot going on here recently. It's been a quiet week after our vacation last week. I've been trying to get back in the rhythm of running again. It's been a total off week as far as my endurance and capability to kick ass out there. It hasn't been a kick ass week, but I'm just glad I've had enough in me to just push myself to go out there and run to keep it as together as I can.

I've realize that as much as I miss my Sammy boy (our dog), not having him around has forced me to pay a lot more attention to Kramer. I feel like a bad owner for even admitting that, but I think I relied on the fact that they had each other too much. Now I feel bad cause I know if I dont walk him or whatever he's on his own pretty much with no physical activity. As a snowball effect that in turn pushes me to go out there and run. He and I both needed it. I just haven't really had the "umph" to this week. However, I'm just really proud at this point that I've gotten my butt up and have done it, and dont just fall way behind.

I know that if I stop or give myself a break it will be even harder to get back in the groove. That's how it always happens. You give yourself an off week, and it's hard as heck to get back into, and before you know it's been 3 months since you last worked out. I'm done with that. I'm done with letting myself go. I'm done with being overweight. I want to kick these pounds once and for all. I need to, for my sake, for the sake of my kid, and for the sake of God willing any other future children.

I think I'm done for tonight. I kinda feel like I mini-vented. LOL.