I feel like I'm so good at writing down my feelings on paper, but God do I suck at expressing them face-to-face with someone. I just get so emotional and breakdown right away, and I'm always afraid of hurting someone's feelings. What the hell do I do when my feelings have been hurt, and I dont even think the other person knows it? A big part of me just wants to let it go and move on, but a bigger part of me can't. The scary part is that the hurt is somewhat becoming anger, a lot of anger. It just sucks that when I need this person the most is when they are the furthest from me. Sometimes I just want to explode, and other days I just dont give a damn anymore. However, it seems like everytime i see them I grow more and more angry because it hurts my feelings that they dont bother to check in. Ugghh!!! You just realize who people really are when tragedy strikes at your door.
I know I need to let people know how I'm feeling or else it's going to spiral out of control, and a relationship may be lost because of this. It's just so damn hard!!! I can't believe I'm even going through all of this. Sometimes its like a bad dream.
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