Kind of blank again.

I dont have much to share today. I think I'm just to lazy to write anything really. Work outs are going great, watching 3 kids under 3 is not all that bad, and eating healthy foods makes you feel good all over, but losing a baby sucks!!! That's what I've concluded. It seems like with each passing day I miss Gabriel more and more. The more days pass the more I long for him, and the more I know I should be feeling him, and seeing him move inside my belly. I can't believe I should be 27 weeks pregnant. 27 weeks!!! Instead I'm feeling empty, and missing him more and more. I wonder more and more what's he supposed to be like, and what he would have looked like. I'm not in that deep depression that I was in after finding out, but the silence of the house at night just makes me think of him so much at night. I so badly wish I was experiencing those 3rd trimester nuisances, but instead I'm just longing for that son I lost. Gabriel I miss you so much.

I dont want to be debbie downer and stuff, and i have to acknowledge that there are many great things going on in my life, and despite the pain I do feel God is still so good. I have an amazing daughter that keeps me going each night, and a loving and caring husband that is always by my side no matter what. That's all for tonite folks.